Haibun: Me Versus Instagram
Who has the authority in each of our reflections? Scrolling through Instagram, do you or I scroll with envy? Do I follow the people that I want to follow so I can be more like them?
If I were to scroll through Instagram with envy, when I start to reflect, to assess, to weigh my latest experience, is it in comparison to what I know about myself or am I weighing my experiences to those I envy on Instagram? It takes a question, “whose life am I living, their’s or mine?“
To live t
heir life is to envy. But to live mine is to know myself. It is to observe myself with lesser and lesser judgment. Holding on with a looser grip on what I think is good or bad. This way I can know if I’m growing in the ways I want or away from the things I don’t want. Pushing judgment away and watching, telling myself thank you at times, that is how I can see myself as an observer, not a judgmental guide using shame or praise, only to hide when I can bear my own self punishments.
heir life is to envy. But to live mine is to know myself. It is to observe myself with lesser and lesser judgment. Holding on with a looser grip on what I think is good or bad. This way I can know if I’m growing in the ways I want or away from the things I don’t want. Pushing judgment away and watching, telling myself thank you at times, that is how I can see myself as an observer, not a judgmental guide using shame or praise, only to hide when I can bear my own self punishments.
when the shore pulls ‘way
all that’s left just stays in mud
autumn starts to sway
